Sorry that I made you angry,

Sorry if you cared,

Sorry that you hate my voice,

Sorry that I bared.

Sorry that I cried,

Sorry that you hit,

Sorry that you want me gone,

I’m sorry that I’m shit.

Sorry that you hate me

And that it’s all the same

Sorry that I hate your guts,

Sorry that I came.

Sorry that I want you killed,

Sorry that I’ve threatened.

I couldn’t care less

About you and your reasons.

But soon it’ll be over,

And I’ll never have to look at you again,

And you can forget about me.

I know ill never mend.

Who am i to discredit someone who hurts themselves to make the pain stop? or curse their family since the day they were born? i have done these things; maybe i havent held my hand over the fire, but i do put myself in situations i know ill get hurt in. that is not to say i dont self mutilate by overanalyzing instead of by razor blade. that is not to say ive never attempted suicide or cried myself to sleep. i am as weak are you are, as anyone is.

thats something i wrote like a month ago. im trying to write things in here... ive been meaning to put it in here... ok it sucks. but yeah.. i was feeling inspired late one night when i was high on cardiac attacks or something.

oh god.

look at those hotties.

hey kids. my first entry without a boyfriend this time. oh well. dude but yeah. im so awesome. i was going to write this thing i wrote a while ago about... i dont remember. but i dont think i will. its too much work to get it.

isnt that a hot picture of rachel?

i like that one of jerwin. he doesnt though. cause hes a very big loser.

ok so lets talk very broadly about how i am and what im doing these days. im alright, and ill be alright, and i never plan on crying again. im going to disneyland with my friendies on sunday... had a dream about it. adam baker was there. WEIRD. dude like seriously, im some kind of freak. i just hold on to weird crushes for like... years. but it isnt like... ALL crushes. just the ones nothing ever happens with. the ones i dont tell but i see everyday? those ones i hold on to.

but yeah. im so ridiculous. im already going through snog withdrawl. it hasnt even been a week since my last kiss. haha i thought i could hold out longer than this... guess i cant.

ok im going to go now. have a great day!

look how hot i am! o0oooh!

a star

love my friends. we win 10 cool points just being us. eee! i should get more friends. i will attempt to make them tomorrow. or today. or.. i dont know... sometime in the future?

go here is you really want to be cool-http://www.livejournal.com/users/feelingsorry/

i think this is going to be my first post with a boyfriend. so yeah, how exciting.

hmmm i dont really have anything to say.

"i know a place where the sun meets the sky"

o m g. this is the most boring thing ever. ok. yeah.